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John_PA
03-08-2008 13:55:11
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Re: OT: Personal stuff in reply to 71ford100, 03-05-2008 23:22:32
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If she went off with some other guy, then forget her.
I lived with my fiance for 3 1/2 years, and one day I came home from work and all my stuff was piled up by the front door. Out of the blue she started dating someone at the hospital where she worked. She was dating him for 2 weeks while living me with me. Nothing was wrong before she met him. we never fought, or ever had any type of problem. Just one day, all my stuff was piled by the door.
Would I ever want her back after what she did to me? no way.
She caused me enough grief, and if she would come crawling back, it would forever be in teh back of my mind that she could do it again. If she had the balls to leave you for someone else now, there is nothing to stop her from doing it later.
It's just not worth the heart ache and aggrivation.
I know how bad it sucks. I remember it like it was yesterday. I get this sick feeling in my stomach, and my head starts spinning. my heart still races thinking about it. It feels like the whole world has turned upside down, and you are completely alone. You can't focus on anything, and all you are thinking of, is her. It really sucks.
It's just not worth letting her back into your life, so that she could do this to you all over again. I know you must love her, and that is what hurts the most. She obviously doesn't have the same love for you. I hate to say that. It sounds so crude. If you really think about it, you'll realize you can never go back to what you had.
It will be 4 years ago, on April 9th, since we split up. She got married, has a child, and a nice home. I haven't gotten over it. between her, and loosing my bodyshop, and a whole slew of other troubles, I am about at my wit's end with the world in general. I guarantee you that I would have been a lot more miserable had I somehow found a way to stay with her, and always have it in teh back of my mind that I could loose her at the drop of a hat, again.
Good luck to you. It's hard to focus, I am sure, but hopefully you can find something or someone to fill your time, and help you get over this rough patch.
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