Still kinda hard to believe

larry@stinescorner · Sep 1, 2017

I must admit,,Im Just sitting here kinda feeling sorry for myself.About 12 years ago,,I got the Ford 2000. At the time the neighbor who farms our land had the sheds filled with stuff.We didnt use them or need them .When I brought the tractor to PA,,he said leave it at his farm in the shed for now till we get to moving stuff around.Through no fault of his or mine,(we were both very busy working,,) the Ford stayed at his farm for well over 10 years. When I started spending a lot more time at the farm,,I set up a little shop in one of our small sheds .Almost got it going pretty good,,just needed some better lighting,,never got to it.Never got to use the shop either,,things were really looking up,,till this diagnosis of cancer.Now everything has sat stag net since this spring.I dont have the white truck anymore,it was sold. I just about got all the buildings painted,,not quite.Things were looking very good,,everything went goodbye in a flash.Sorry,,////I just kinda feel down today.

JMOR · Sep 1, 2017

Keep that chin up! It ain't over! Many do in fact get well and have good lives following treatment. On my 5th year as of now and looking for more!
You have made a lot of improvements in the place and ought to be planning more.

paul · Sep 1, 2017

Things get overwhelming once in a while.

Had kind of a string of bad luck around me in the past 2 weeks, me and mine are fine but wow 2 funerals one totally unexpected and 1/3 of the coffee club started talking about radiation and chemo at the same time all of a sudden.

Makes a person look around and think.......

Trying to do different stuff and get out and about myself, think more about the things I want to do instead of unimportant stuff I end up doing.

There will be down days, but one foot in front of the other. Chin up. Sounds contrite, but it's how it is.

Paul

Bob in SD · Sep 1, 2017

Hang in there Larry. This ain't over yet. Make plans to do all of this stuff next year.

Ferd · Sep 1, 2017

Larry - you might look at this website http://themissionwalker.com/. Edie is married to my nephew and was given three months to live and that was several years ago. She's doing well today and overcame great odds starting with stage IV gallbladder cancer that had spread. The website may give you some encouragement.

NY 986 · Sep 1, 2017

I hope things turn around for you. I had to sell some ground that was in the family for many years after a few poor business years and the hurt went on to and including today. Your problems are obviously much greater than mine but I guess it makes me realize how much worse things could be. Again, I will pray that things turn around soon for you.

jacksun65 · Sep 1, 2017

I look at all you have done and am amazed. I went through a life changing accident at work and am no longer able to do the things I used to. I was totally depressed for a long while,but life goes on and I have learned to adapt to the changes. It takes time but you will do well for you have friends who are with you God Bless

JMS/.MN · Sep 1, 2017

My better half went thru breast cancer, mastectomy, reconstruction surgery, chemo, radiation......been cancer free for six years now! She is a very positive person, and had wonderful, caring doctors as well. Most of a year in treatment, but best results.

Mike M · Sep 1, 2017

Larry: We are all praying for you to get better. I know you are not one to just "sit around" must really be hard on you. I still remember back when you were posting photos of what all you were doing and how well you cleaned up that place thinking how does he do it ? Hang in there. And keep posting.

Billy NY · Sep 1, 2017

How you are feeling right now will happen, more than once, and I think its a normal reaction to your situation, given the lifestyle you have lived for so long.

I sat with a long time great friend and farmer for several hours, think it was about 5 years ago. He was dealing with internal problems that we both knew would the end of him. He felt the same way, but amazingly, just said thanks for coming by and help me pass the time.We talked about the great new tandem sileage truck he bought and other things he had recently accomplished, he said the same thing, never got to drive it or use it etc. One side of him was certainly depressed, but the resilient side of him is what always stood out stronger and did so until the very end. His brother saw me outside last saturday and stopped in to talk awhile, when we spoke of his brother, it was difficult not to feel sadness, and when he left afterward, it was worse for me. That was not all we talked about, but its hard to believe still and I look out onto the land and think of him often. All things in life, unpleasantry's (sp) included must be reckoned with. I think you are doing as best as a person can do under these circumstances and wish you a speedy recovery!

ArleninOr · Sep 1, 2017

Larry, like everybody else has said, " Chin Up ". 11 yrs ago I went through a very life changing situation. Took me about 2 yrs to readjust. But I survived and am doing just about everything I did before. Have faith and just believe in yourself and what everyone on here is telling you. You can and will get better by believing that you can do it. A lot of folks have been in your shoes and they are trying to help you over this speed bump in life. Keep your spirits up and keep posting pictures. Will only get to see you and your part of the country through your eyes.

leroy in ne · Sep 1, 2017

larry, figure on doing it in the future, still trying to get projects finished I was planning on doing when I retired. guess what 3 months before scheduled retirement I came down with cancer. surgery in 2012, same in 2013, chemo and radiation in 2015 that about whipped my behind, but slowly working on what needs to be done and finishing up projects. YOU can do the same. hang in there and get better. if I can do it you can to. LeRoy

john in la · Sep 1, 2017

I never comment to threads like this because I never really know what to say.
So afraid I may offend someone because they took what I said wrong.
Especially since you can not see emotion over the internet.
But here goes. Hope I do not upset anyone.

Keep your chin up Larry.
Many go threw your same dilemma and come threw very well.

But if the Lord does not have that plan for you at least you got to make plans for it.
Your wife and daughter have had precious months with you to say things they normally would not say.
So while it may feel like everything went goodbye in a flash it did not.
I have known several friends that have left for work like it was just another day never to return.
That is gone in a flash.

So keep your chin up and once again I hope I did not upset you more.
But be grateful the Lord gave you the opportunity to prepare yourself and family for a road we all will take one day.

Dick B in CA · Sep 1, 2017

Hi Larry ...... Keep your Chin Up. I had Lymphoma last year & had six months of Chemo. I am in remission now.
Ya need to buy another white truck so you will be ready to go to work. I have recently ordered a new 2018 truck to be delivered in November.
Wanna borrow the 2018 Truck ??

Lou from Wis. · Sep 1, 2017

Larry,I will tell ya times have changed for all of us, and adversity has it's moments.Just keep on with your faith as that's all we have in this lifetime.I do what ever(very little now)I can to help.Both hands are without feeling except three fingers on the right hand and both legs are so weak, it's almost impossible to get around,and my Son has to hold my hands to keep me from falling down (ALWAYS)!!!!!!!~.In a way your lucky to be able to do a lot of thing I will never again be able to do!! Some illnesses(like mine)are not reversible, even so I have a lot still to be thank full for.I say my prayers for you and I'm sure they will be answered in the near future.JUST KEEP THE FAITH,bide your time and do things you have the energy for. Remember, The Good Lord will NOT put more of a burden on you then you can handle!!!!!!.Your life is necessary for the family and friends. My warmest regards ever!! Lou & Victor.

2underage · Sep 1, 2017

Larry, do not let the recent health problems get you down. I, like you got the big "C" just when things seemed to be going too good. I spent the last week in May in a hospital bed after an 8 hour operation. that would not have been so bad but we were in the process of planting our corn and soybeans. The Doctors told me to not even look at my tractors for 3 weeks.

Like you now I was feeling pretty depressed but then along came my kids and they took over the planting operation for me. That lifted my spirts and I began to feel positive about my life and of course I am very proud of my family. Yes I still hurt and I am not the shadow of my old self but things could be a lot worse.

I did feel well enough to use my tractors and I did get my hay done. I feel a little stronger each day and I am sure that you will to. You have a lot of people, on this site pulling for you. Keep your chin up and keep posting.

Philip d · Sep 1, 2017

I don't know exactly what to say either Larry but I do know that I feel for you. Never had the '"C" word that I am aware of as of yet but there have been times in my own life that struggles seemed to be hopeless but somehow faith and family helped keep me going and please don't give up the fight!

ray hofstetter · Sep 1, 2017

X2 what Philip said Larry...

olgentdc · Sep 1, 2017

Larry ,.have you got more bad news /?? i dont always catch up with everyone ,,.or keep up ,not even sure what you havebeen diagnosed with .. and i will probably be late for my own funeral ,..i have neuropathy in my hands and feet from the chemo i took last year for stage 3 colon cancer ,.not sure if it will ever go away , or if my cancer problems will come back .. bui , i am gonnamake the best of it and run that run that BLack DOG of feel sads away with all sorts of feel goods, granbabies , music , visits ..., or just aplain ol nap ...

kruser · Sep 1, 2017

Keep a Good attitude Larry,
Went through Lung Cancer and a spot on my Brain back in 2014.
Still here to torment and meet people at the Tractor shows !!
Yer phreind,
Jim

Dick L · Sep 1, 2017

Just got back from the doctor. While I was there she did what they call a wellness check up. She ask all kinds a questions that could give a person depression. Wanted to send me for more stupid tests that I have been thru for the last several years with no actual results giving a cause. After a series of questions I told her that I was not afraid of dying if that what she was after. Something about, you know when people reach close to 80, like 80 was old or something. Wanted to know if I exercised regularly. I ask her what she considered exercise and would taking care of 17 horses count. I said I aint planning on dying today and sure as the world was not going to be worrying about it. I then started running off at the mouth with an excited tone about my horses telling stories about different ones by name. She set and listened with a grin until she said she would get my order for blood tests. I get medicares moneys worth that way. No 15 minute visit when I go in when they act like I'm on my last legs.
Don't let going to those saw bones get you down Larry. Think happy thoughts.

ed will · Sep 1, 2017

Larry, don't be blue, we all love and need your posts.Ed Will Oliver BC

muleman51 · Sep 1, 2017

Just hang in there, a person never knows what we get dealt. Had my first bout with the C a year and half ago surgery and chemo. Thought I was in the clear until last week, guess I get to start the process all over again. Makes me think maybe I should quit my day job,but I would just stay home working on that list that doesn't go away. I think I'll keep working. We all gotta keep looking up. Jim

SweetFeet · Sep 1, 2017

Larry,

I've not battled cancer. And I'm sure at times, it feels really scary BUT...

Hang on to hope, friend! The doctors told you "they were going for a cure". And we are all praying that a cure will be your outcome.

I'm sure it's very hard for you (the original Energizer Bunny) to be so restricted right now from all the work you love. But try to remember that it's only just for RIGHT NOW.

I'm telling you Dude... I plan on being your online friend for a long, long time. I'm looking forward to pics of you someday working in your garden with your grandkiddles. Maybe with a new dog keeping you company... or a new cat twining 'round your legs and getting in the way while you try to hoe. And pics of you and your wife at open mic night, or visiting your friends, or doing a good deed - since you both do many good deeds.

This treatment is tough... BUT YOU ARE TOUGHER!!! And yeah - you're going to feel like H-E-Double Hockey Sticks for some time. Your body will need time to recover once the treatments are completed.

But right now, your most important job is to rest, eat as well as you can, and rest some more. While you are resting... your body is working to get well.

Don't let that dang ol' grey cloud win! Sweep those gloomy thoughts away... just refuse to to listen to 'em.

Keep your mind on the THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY ONCE YOU GET FEELING BETTER: spending time with your wife, spending time with your little girl, the sunshine, the blue skies, the white fluffy clouds, the brown garden soil, the seedlings popping out of the ground... and cruisin' on your tractor!

I just gotta believe better days are ahead.

You can beat this thing. You can do it. I think you can, I think you can, I THINK YOU CAN!!!

All your friends here are planning on you being @ The Corner for a long, long time.

fixerupper · Sep 1, 2017

Well I'm another one who doesn't know what to say. I've never faced cancer and I hope I never do, but I do realize we all can be a victim. cancer takes over your whole life, as you well know. If you don't fight it, it takes over. If you do fight it the battle ritual consumes your livelihood. Your life revolves around the treatment schedule and doctor appointments. I don't feel like I'm qualified to say 'keep your chin up' because, like I previously said, I have never fought the battle you are fighting. But I'll say it anyway. Larry, keep your chin up. All of us will be your prop.

Royse · Sep 1, 2017

I've always enjoyed your posts and pictures Larry.
These pictures included.
It pains me to know you're feeling down.
Attitude is everything my friend. You can win this fight!
Like you have so many others.

"Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you're right."

Henry Ford

tracto-man · Sep 1, 2017

Keep on keeping on! I haven't posted much but been praying for you every time I read your posts.

Don't give up! And thanks for those pics again!

jim buford · Sep 1, 2017

I pray that the healing of Jesus will be manifest in your body. I have had the benefit of a lot prayer since being diagnosed with leukemia 12 years ago. I believe it is God's will for us to be well. When Jesus walked the earth He never refused to heal anyone who called on Him. Don't mean to preach but He loves you. I will have our prayer groups pray for you by name.

onefarmer · Sep 1, 2017

My wife has been dealing with the Big C since 2013. The whole down there woman thing. After a total hysterectomy they said she was good to go. Then after a checkup she had a tumor. Ok take it out and then Chemo. She she grew another right thru the chemo. Take it out and another. Anyway here we are still dealing but still alive. She has cried, laughed and everything between. But she has full faith in God and so do I.

She is doing the best she has since last year at this same time. We tried a trip then but it was interrupted when we got to Colorado and had to hurry to FL. Trying it again now and we made it to California. Made it thru San Fransisco barely. I hate big cities and this was just crazy. Going up to Wash and back across US2.

Anyway you gotta take the good days and enjoy best you can and keep looking up.

sms · Sep 2, 2017

Same here SWMBO had it very bad and is still here 17 (18?) years later. She had a goal to live long enough to see the kids out of highschool. They are all done with college, on there own and doing well. Now she spends as much time as she can with the three grandchildren she never thought she would see.

showcrop · Sep 2, 2017

I know hat it is difficult to believe but you can find a lot in your Bible that will make you feel better. You may not feel bad enough yet to actually go and open it up and read, but keep this in mind because that time could come.

JD in da UP · Sep 2, 2017

L:arry, You don't know me from Adam but your genuine friendliness and neighborly-ness show through your posts and your pics. I sure hope you weren't faking that friendliness all these years! Somme of us are probably having similar feelings of loss and having our time taken from us. Thank you for sharing that and trusting us. I hope you aren't isolated and alone and I hope there's a friendly neighbor nearby who can give you a hug and let you know you are loved. All the sheds and tractors in the world won't help if we don't feel loved. Keep fighting. John

larry@stinescorner · Sep 2, 2017

Thanks so much for all the reply's,it sure helps!

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